Becky

radios_inheaven @ 2004-01-03T09:25:00

2004-01-03T15:25:58Z

new journal: sellout_

radios_inheaven @ 2004-01-03T06:47:00

2004-01-03T12:47:56Z

Happy Birthday to me.

radios_inheaven @ 2004-01-01T16:35:00

2004-01-01T22:35:49Z

God damn this new year. I am so sick it is not funny. No food in over 24 hours. I just now started to drink. I've been throwing up out of every hole in my body. My throat hurts from the acid. I gag up nothing but gas. I have a 100.2 temperature (which is a lot because I am usually at 97). This is the first time I have really sat up. I haven't spoken to Jarrod in a few days. I have been lying around doing absolutely nothing. TV. I watched some show that focused around a porn star producer guy like all last night. Seymour Butts. That show was great, even if I saw penises... my kryptonite. I think I am about to throw up. What great fun.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-31T15:37:00

2003-12-31T21:37:28Z

(can't forget this picture)

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-30T05:23:00

2003-12-30T11:24:01Z

+ 15

(i took a lot of pictures and uploaded them though dial up on my cell phone just for you. you better appreciate it.)

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-27T20:55:00

2003-12-28T02:57:01Z

(me and kelly)

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-24T19:24:00

2003-12-25T01:25:27Z

I am in California and you are not.

Text OR call me. I got a new phone and I kick ass. Picture phone, too. Leave your email address and I will send you something!

9312473847.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-21T20:18:00

2003-12-22T02:19:25Z

Yes, I'm still grounded. Blows, eh? I miss you all!

Five days.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-12T06:17:00

2003-12-12T12:17:43Z

Sorry I haven't been around. Grounded. Damn.

I love you, Kelly. 14 days.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-06T09:42:00

2003-12-06T15:43:18Z

Dude, the past two days have been pretty decent! My newspaper advisor has been giving me a lot of crap about how the front page looks "mediocre" and stuff and how she wants to pull the greatness out of me.

Thursday
I don't know about all that, but Thursday I had to eat first lunch (with Jarrod!) because the school's art teacher was coming to talk to us, well, mainly me, about design. I didn't wear my glasses from 2nd-4th period because I had a headache like a (beep). Lunch was great. In line Jarrod's exgirlfriend came up behind me and put her head on my shoulders and I kissed her on the cheek. Jarrod found that hott for reasons unknown to me. So yeah. Anyways, we ate lunch, which was cool because I seem to get along perfectly with his immature freshmen friends. Toilet humor humors me. Then Mrs. Soozie came to talk to us and she told us how perfect our paper was and she told me not to accept criticism because people the criticize are just jealous cause they suck!

Friday
Yesterday rocked, too. I'm not sure if I remember why. I mean, it didn't totally suck. I was walking to Shaina about how I kissed Mallory (Jarrod's ex) and she said that's was probably jerk-worthy. I meant to tell him about that, but I didn't. Hm... so I met Jarrod after the last bell and I was all "Guess what!" and he said "it's snowing." So I tried again, same thing. And again. Then I was like "okay...uhm.. guess what?!" and he looked at me and said what and I told him that I love him. It was all sweet. So I carried on walking him to the bus and we kissed and parted ways. Yay!

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-05T07:17:00

2003-12-05T13:17:42Z

Who wants to buy me The Lion King 2-disc DVD set for Christmas? Or The Lion King 2: Simba's Pride? Or who wants to pre-order The Lion King 1½? I am not obsessed. Honest.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-04T15:47:00

2003-12-04T21:47:46Z

I kissed a girl today. Just on the cheek, but I still did it. And I liked it. It felt good, and even though for the second I was doing it I forgot about Jarrod, he totally enjoyed it and thought it was hot. Maybe the satisfaction of knowing that I turned him on made me like it. Who knows. I'm not complaining.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-04T06:09:00

2003-12-04T12:09:47Z

So yesterday was another horrible day, but not for the most part. It was two months for Jarrod and I. It was sort of weird, I gave him his present and we were all happy and holding hands and walking and then he asked how I was because yesterday obviously sucked. Then he said he had been thinking and he had something to say but didn't know how to say it and I was just....'uhhh should I worry?' He said no not really, but guess what! I DID IT ANYWAYS. So here I am worrying. Next time I saw him he was wearing the shirt I got him and he seemed all happy. So I asked if he remembered it and he said no and that I worried for nothing. I called him after work because I got home early and he said just wanted to tell me not to sweat the little things and to prove my teacher wrong. Awww!

Your hook up with Jesse Lacey by smurdlad
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Where you meet	at a coffee shop
How you meet	you smile at him
What happens	you have sex
What results	he writes a song for you
This happens on	May 1, 2022

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I get some in a coffee shop! Heck ya. And only 19 years away!

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-02T19:14:00

2003-12-03T01:14:58Z

I almost want to tell my parents the cut on my arm isn't from a cardboard box... but I won't. I almost feel like I need Jarrod like I used to need Addison... but I know I don't. I haven't felt this way in a while.

It's weird. I was having a great day, but then I started feeling sick. Then I found four dollars. Then I went to Newspaper and everything I did was WRONG WRONG WRONG. I'm not up to par, she said. My work is mediocre, she wrote. Then why I am assistant editor? Because I'm not a professional and neither is anyone else. I don't know what to do. I want so much out of life and I'm not getting it. I want to be wanted, and needed, and begged for, but not for wishes I can't grant.

I almost want to tell my parents the cut on my arm isn't from a cardboard box.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-12-01T20:55:00

2003-12-02T02:55:44Z

Did you know those little antenna booster things for cell phones work? Well, they do.

Today Jarrod had a little yellow bunny. He was torturing me with it. I don't like bunnies. Anywho, I hope he didn't get it for me. That would so suck because I would feel horrible for being scared of rabbits. (Close encounter with an Easter bunny once). Anyways, yeah, it was cute and scary all at once.

Oh, and we kissed today. That made me feel great. Just like frosted flakes, except they taste bad in soylattes.

I'm giving Jarrod his ex-miss present on Wednesday because it will be our two month and I won't be around at Christmas. I wrote his card out this morning. I wished him a Happy Every-Holiday-Anniversary-Birthday that is coming up. I also said that I could write something insightful or just say thanks and I love you...so I signed it Thanks! Merry Christmas!..and I love you. Aw.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-27T19:00:00

2003-11-28T01:01:30Z

I own because I have a Taking Back Sunday ringtone and you don't.

Oh, and I love Jarrod.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-27T12:29:00

2003-11-27T18:30:12Z

{Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?} Guernica by Brand New

ARGH! I'm going to fucking explode. I don't care if I'm trying to stop cussing anymore. When you're mad, you're mad. When you're mad and you're Becky.... don't even bother. I asked my dad to take me to Wal-Mart because I needed some stuff. I swear, I have nothing to munch on. I could practically live off pretzels. My mom told me to eat the Fritos in the pantry. I took the bags and threw them on the floor. Then. I stomped them. Yeah, I have a temper. I know this. I don't need anyone to tell me that. I know I did wrong. I got yelled at for a reason. I understand that that was a waste of maybe 50 cents and a kid in Ethiopia just died because of my temper. Who cares?

{I've been bleeding well from this old wound. Cleaning it with salt, so it will still feel new} This Old Wound by Dashboard Confessional

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-25T19:18:00

2003-11-26T01:18:23Z

r0lem0del owns your bum. Join today.

On to business, I want you to comment anything that you want.
Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love (hah, right) - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.
Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.
And I really want someone to do this...cause at least ONE person has to have something to say.

Please take that seriously.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-24T14:17:00

2003-11-24T20:17:54Z

I just got a prepaid phone. Virgin Mobile. 931 588 9050. Call me and leave a message (I most likely won't answer) or send me a txt (you can do that here.) Well, have fun you guys. I have work in a few minutes.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-22T15:00:00

2003-11-22T21:04:51Z

Ugh. Work consumes my life now.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-18T20:30:00

2003-11-19T02:30:55Z

Sometimes he gives me these "I love you" looks and I just know every little thing is going to be alright.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-17T17:58:00

2003-11-17T23:58:40Z

I touched his tummy today. He said he wanted to pierce his belly button (I said no) and he was all raising his shirt. Well. I went to pull it down and my hand somehow ended up on his tummy. I wonder.

No one on my friends list has been writing lately. Oh yeah, Brand New layout.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-16T11:10:00

2003-11-16T17:11:08Z

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and ~~serious~~. Loves to teach ~~and be taught~~. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. ~~Hardworking~~ and productive. Smart, ~~neat and organized~~. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. ~~Quiet~~ unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. ~~Highly attentive~~. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has ~~great~~ social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and ~~money cautious~~.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-15T18:52:00

2003-11-16T00:52:53Z

who screwed my ears? ha. Ok, lame-o.

radios_inheaven @ 2003-11-13T16:37:00

2003-11-13T22:38:10Z

I'm going insane.